Appreciation

MFE考砸了 manual 就看了一遍 边边角角的题目全出来了
半知半解的 猜都没法猜  胡乱蒙了好几道题
跟经理说秋天再正式加入study program 意思就是如果这次真的蒙过了 工资可以涨 奖金就别想了

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新车全部报废了 保险赔了一个还算公平的价格 前前后后折腾了一个多月 偶也懒得再纠缠也就从了

正式上班的第一周 憋了一口气 天天跑车行 从亚特兰大的东北边跑到西北边 中午不吃饭 下午下了班接着跟dealer 斗智斗勇 咱主席不是说 与天斗与地斗与人斗 其乐无穷么 不折不扣一摩羯男

上周五晚上总算谈到一个不错的价格 弄回家一辆小型的suv  还是黑色  很喜欢 ----

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最近遇上闷骚无敌理性无敌慢热无敌的金牛男同学 
同级别理性无敌的天平的偶....还是先闪了吧...

半夜里摸上来 又想写两个字了 excel表看着头大 算了半天的 cash value 愣是没有算出来

收到朋友一封邮件 又想到车祸的事情 如果那天我再快一点或者对方再慢一点 就会直接撞上驾使侧的门 虽然我的车 门上是有安全气囊的 但是也不知道会有多大的保护

有人曾经就这样受了很严重的伤 抢救 从胳膊下到大腿全缝上 很多年过去了身体两边都不太平衡

现在想想当时的情形 心里还有一些发毛 以后红绿灯的地方真的是要多加小心

Last semester in school...Final Finals...

Too much going on recently...took three weeks off..

two cups of coffee and two MtnDew everyday

...whatever can get me through...no wonder this April feels as hot as hell...

Fell asleep with lights on and woke up feeling heavy eyelids..

Now this cute cute cute cute guy asks me out to dine...and I have to say no...

My crazy )&*()&*^*%*&^*% stupid life...

updates on my poor car

...the initial cost is 11,176 dollars. The claim adjuster only looked outside..the cost will definitely climb up after they open to look more...

plus the diminshed value...

I don't know how much it will cost eventually...

Hold on to my diet plan!

Self diagnosed as depressed...

indicators:

1. weight gain; or suspicious of weight gain; with no exercise.

2. No phone calls to parents over a week; prefer text to phone call 

3. Distant act to strangers; Easily unhappy or upset; Making big deal out of small things

4. Feeling lazy and tired most of time; in need of more than two cups of coffee everyday.

5. Failure to keep up with what I said. like stood up ping pong partners & never called back later though said I would...

6. Serious procrastination.....way much behind my MFE study schedule... 

7. Eating "disorder" - not as serious as that...but self conscious about eating too much or too little

8. Lack of interests in talking to roomate or anyone..."solitude" is the current status

9. Stayed up late and didn't wanna go to sleep

REALLY REALLY BAD MOOD RECENTLY.

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Some things to cheer up a litte bit:

1. H1 approved...officially move on from student visa after almost 5 years of stay in U.S.

2. Booked ticket to Miami for my first biz trip...party time on the beach and extra motivation to get back on diet now

3. indecisive about the trip to Orlando...How can I squeeze it into my action packed schedule? Still in search of answers...

4. Incapble of saying "no" to dinner or party invitations...Again and again I prioritized my social life upto the top.

Rising Sign is in 20 Degrees Cancer

Very sensitive by nature, you prefer to be in your own familiar surroundings. Cautious and conservative, you make changes in your life only very slowly, if at all. You do not open up easily to strangers. Friendships are made for life, however -- once given, your trust is forever. Your mother, your home as a child and your early family life in general are very important to you. You are also very sentimental. When you feel self- confident, you are gentle, giving and protective of the needs of others. But when you feel insecure or threatened, you become overly sensitive to criticism, shy, withdrawn and moody. You have a strong need for security -- in the sense that you are being loved, nourished and protected.

Sun is in 27 Degrees Libra.

Very sociable, you enjoy being with others and definitely prefer not be alone. Warm and affectionate, you go out of your way to make others like you. You despise ugliness, for you being surrounded by beauty and harmony is a necessity of life. You prefer fine clothing, an attractive home and pleasant surroundings wherever you are. Your refined tastes apply to music and to art as well. At times, you are very indecisive you waver and falter when forced to make a choice because you have the ability to see both sides of any question. The positive part of this is that you are very fair-minded and can be trusted to settle disputes. Your greatest challenge is to take any one- on-one encounter and make the most of it.

Moon is in 21 Degrees Sagittarius.

An idealist, you prefer the grand, the beautiful, the good and the noble. You get very disappointed when your high expectations in life are not met. Very curious by nature, you enjoy traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. Try to avoid your tendency to ignore the small but important details of living. You are independent and free, and you want others to be that way, too. Optimistic, buoyant and cheerful, others like to have you around. You have an incessant desire to learn as much as possible about metaphysics, religion, philosophy and any other broad, deep subject. Your life tends to be punctuated by bursts of energy and frenetic activity.

Mercury is in 10 Degrees Libra.

You are known for not jumping to conclusions about things. You tend to weigh all possible choices very carefully before making a decision. When in the slightest amount of doubt, you will compromise rather than ruffle any feathers. You are a true raconteur of culture and taste -- your ideas and opinions are neat, elegant and refined. A born diplomat, you dislike discord so much that you will go out of your way to make others feel comfortable and at ease. You speak softly and pleasantly.

Venus is in 24 Degrees Libra.

A very friendly and outgoing person, you hate to be alone. Beware of a continuing tendency to compromise yourself in order to avoid being lonely. Try to be yourself, not what others would like you to be. You have an innate desire to be in refined and elegant surroundings and will go out of your way to create a plush and comfortable atmosphere around you. You have heightened aesthetic sensibilities and are attracted to music and the arts. Try to avoid using your well-known seductive charm in order to get out of doing what you consider to be dirty work!

Mars is in 22 Degrees Sagittarius.

Your every action is motivated by high moral standards and ideals. You will work very hard to improve the lot of the world at large, but you demand action about it -- you do not like to just sit around and talk about doing it in an abstract manner. You like to be where the real action is. You resist mightily any attempts to limit your freedom and you will assist anyone who feels put down and restricted. You are extremely restless by nature -- physical exercise is very important to you if you would maintain your health.

Jupiter is in 15 Degrees Scorpio.

You love to dig deep beneath surface appearances in order to find out what is really happening. A persistent researcher, you are very interested in the psychology of any situation. You tend to become overwhelmed by the complexity of what you uncover, however, and that makes you a bit gun-shy about explaining things to others. But you must learn to try to communicate as best you can because what you know is really very valuable to others.

Saturn is in 25 Degrees Libra.

Although you take quite a while to make decisions, you usually consider all sides to a question, all the pros and cons, and the solution you come up with is very often the correct one. You tend to be very reserved and shy, but, once you make a commitment to someone (in either a business or personal relationship), the partnership is forever. You have a strong sense of justice and fair play and greatly respect the laws and institutions by which you are governed. As such, you are outraged when others break laws or show contempt for authority.

Uranus is in 02 Degrees Sagittarius.

You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 24 Degrees Sagittarius.

You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village."

Pluto is in 26 Degrees Libra.

For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly.

N. Node is in 06 Degrees Cancer.

You genuinely enjoy meeting other people, but you're at your best if you can do so from the comfort of your own home. You prefer others to come to you and tend to feel uncomfortable about leaving your home or neighborhood for any extended period of time. Those who do come in contact with you are struck by your caring and obliging nature -- you really make them feel at home. You form the closest ties, however, with members of your immediate family, especially your parents and children. You're at your best attending or organizing family reunions!

车前部撞了　

脚肿了　胸口被气囊打得很疼　太阳穴肿了　

和别人对撞　对方的错　crazy　闯红灯　等着保险公司陪

对方的车被撞偏了135度　，我的车偏了30度，车奔路边的柱子上　柱子倒了　气囊出来了 一股焦味

我以前我快要完了

至少要1w万来修　我怎么这么倒霉

MN Rochester: the most north place on earth I have ever been...freezing and windy as hell in April

three day intense game: arm soured, so was butt, and thigh. 

We made top 10 table tennis team in the U.S. We could have done better...but the best we can get is probably just one spot ahead...# 9, if I didn't lose the match to Duke. 

There were way too many better players up there. So good that we didn't even get a chance to play againt them.

I wish I could make it next year, but I am graduating; I wish I could have made more time to practice, but we seemed to be satisfied just with making to the nationals; and I wish I could hire a coach after this coming May actuarial exam, that's something I'd really like to do....

The severe weather up in the very north is definitely not my cup of tea.  I guess It will have to pay me a looooooooot to convince me move up there. My eyes had red lines all the time from the moment we landed; and my lips are now still swelling and hurt badly when I eat....my yellow bubble jacket made me look like a bear when I was outside and the wind could almost take me down.  

Beside all the hard things, we still had pretty good time....like made some friends...had some groofy moment with those crazy tech guys...played Mafia and Bowling...tried some local "Italian" and Chinese food...

It was a very good experience over all. I would certainly regret if I didn't go.

Next stop: FL Orlando 19 - 23rd.

April 1st, Fools' day....

律师写信过来确认我的h1-b申请材料已经交上去了　一有抽签结果下来就通知　昨天晚上已经很多次梦见过抽签了　梦见自己连抽了三年全没有抽中 梦里很压抑　一压抑就不想醒　不想醒一下子就到11点了　11点了赶去上12点的课肯定来不及了　作业也没有写　算了逃课吧 愤世嫉俗的话偶也不想多说了　反正现在经济不好　外国人总是先倒霉　身份问题就像一个火药包　外界一点压力就完了 失业率过10%的州已经有好几个了　Georgia 的９点多也快了有大萧条的征兆了　很多朋友都被裁了 连healthcare 行业也不能幸免 上周某ＩＴ牛XX　全美又砍掉了5000　连偶打球的伴也丢了 

早上起来称体重　重了两斤　让原本郁闷的偶　更难受了 哎　

Far behind my MFE study schedule......

went out three consecutive nights... ..danced like there is no tomorrow...shaked with the beat like you are at the center of spotlight.....alcholoh tolerance took off...who said u belonged to the club... I still went home on my own..what u see was not what u get...

I am still as serious as hell... 

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house cleaned so is my mind...put away all the crap...even the monitor on the table....now it is sitting under my bed... for the next month or so...i am all about MFE..i have to be...determined to pass it at the first time....working towards my goal to get associate in 2010.

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M called this morning, expressed his thanks for all my help for his "wine management" class. Offer to take me out to dine and wine. I told him I just did my job. Having someone to appreciate ur work always makes u feel great.

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J told me Friday night that he and my boss were impressed that I was willing to ride with the "intimidating" chief.. after that ride...I guess everything worked out just fine... J paid everything we went out... I guess I need to buy him a lunch next week.

Always making some time for the ones you need to get along with....making good use of the chance to let others know u better.